"I smiled a lot as an infant. Definitely look happy. Sometimes I felt lonely lying in a black room in my crib. My baby/child eyes would strain to see any traces of light until a gentle thought would remind me of the limitations of physical eyes and that it was best to relax and close them. I would eventually drift off to sleep.
Before my conception, my mother, Patricia Rae Arnason, had a thought/wish that it would be nice to have another child. I guess that was enough encouragement for me; I was conceived very soon afterwards. She remembers a feeling of happiness. Birth was simple and uneventful. It was a hospital birth, short and uncomplicated. I was a quiet and happy baby. My mother would bring me into the room where the family was gathered and I would intently watch the goings-on for hours. It wasn't even necessary to hold me although I would have wished for more of that.
Fast forward to the first piano lesson at the age of 4. I remember Mommy holding out her hands, fingers extended straight out and asking me to do the same. I had begun the formal study of music! It was exciting.... Public school was somewhat rigid and repetitious for me. Being a very high-energy child made it difficult to sit quietly at a desk for several hours a day. I developed coping strategies and accepted this as a required feature of human life.
I subsequently went on to finish high school and then immediately entered University to further my studies in music. Four and one half years later saw me with a Bachelor of Music in Piano Performance. Learning has continued since leaving this venue of education.
Throughout this I have been searching for a deeper sense of fulfillment with life. In the School of Music I awoke to piano performance being a real life option to take. By the end of the Bachelor program I knew that the classical concert stage was not an adequate performance vehicle for me. And so the search continued......"
Later in the next millennium...
April 6, 2007
While taking a break from the practising of Continuous Music it felt like a good idea to do some movement work. Put on EJ Gold's Indoctrination Loop CD and worked with ESD for a while. Then decided to put on Love Everlasting (track 1 Classic Symmetry) and move with that. Most successful, fun & interesting! Then a new and wonder full development. I began to sing, chant and hum with the music. The voice opened up and I spent the next 15-20 minutes working with the different registers. Columnar resonance started to manifest with the vibration extending right to the abdomen. My voice went through various permutations and I was successfully able to work through tensions that would cause the voice to jump into the throat. At some points a large volume of sound would appear. Memories from a few months of Excellent singing lessons in 4th year university came into my mind and coached me on how to constructively manipulate my body/voice. (many thanks to Ms. H. Standring for her help and professional demeanour)
I am so grateful to my inner being/soul for communicating directly with me to offer teachings about developing my musical abilities. May all beings deeply connect with their inner posture of teaching/learning.
I am so deeply blessed & grateful.
Please give this ability to everyone who truly wishes to access it. THANK YOU DIVINE.